Monday, October 10, 2011
I am back.
This time I want to share how worthy is the word patience when it comes to love.
It started with two individuals who doesn't give a damn.
A few years later fate just gave them a WHAM!
It was blessing in disguise as they say.
But this time it ain't child's play.
You know where did I come from.
You know how crazy can I become.
You know when did I become gruesome.
But You don't know yet that I don't give my heart with 'just' some.
Everyday is a sunny day.
Everyday I look forward for Saturday.
Everyday I pray...to make your heart stay.
Stay... just like everyday.
I won't make this long.
You know where my heart belong.
You make me believe that time is, was and will never be wrong.
Just make me remember, on the third of the month we celebrate how we are so strong. :)
Can you imagine six months? I never Imagined you'll step close to this.
Sunday, June 12, 2011
I came to cross the land from the other side.
Seems like the clouds stops and stares at me...and somehow reminding me to STOP.
I left the other side of me and as I fly, he is patiently waiting...
Until I conquer what's with the pouring rain.
There were a lot of drama, blood that I dropped and it feels like I need to PAUSE.
It wasn't the dreamland that I have been thinking of as of now, I am flying to the motion of the propeller.
I needed to clear the issues for and to my self.
I love you for now and I will expect that when I get back.
I wish to see how we laugh again and to see victorious over my fears.
As for now I will rest from my pillow and wishing my head resides yours when the day blinks,
then say PLAY
As I reiterate the fair, you always save this lad as you flap your wings in the air and the speeding bullets are no match from your flair.
I feel like we are not in the same blood line, for you are a demigod and I just work on my filthy nod.
I have never Imagined your strength . The distance maybe miles away but the radiation makes me sway.
I maybe caught dumb-founded with your perfect love and trust that I will never put it in to rust.
.... HE gave me a bump to my head and told me "Son do not be a fool not to realize how swift his heart, how his heart would be as tough as a steel and how warm it is."
As I pray from above, he sent you like a dove.
He never gave me a message instead a passage to give you freedom as you please but if you ask me, honestly, I don't want to let thy release.
As per the people:
"Heroes have to save the day"... and I am not that lame to make you stay.
I will wait for the month of May where all heroes chooses a place to lay...
From then I will wait for that day.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
what was you need is not you want.
I am trying to look back how I were before...
from trashy, classy and now I don't know where I am going but as how I look back I always see how far I am going.
It has been a great course of how bumpy it was and I couldn't tell how were everything went but one thing I am sure, I learned and learning as they pass by.
I turn the pages and I laugh, I cry and hiding from my pillow from being ashamed of my self. It is surely funny.
I caught myself being on blank pages thinking from somewhere deep inside.
The pain, the joy and embarrassing times and as I look at this page, which has fears, hopes and full of passion to look forward for tomorrow.
I wasn't imagining, sadly it is true but I am happy I wasn't dreaming after all.
I must say I haven't been a good boy.
I am more being a naughty one but he has always strive to get up after a fall.
Here I am in front of you.
Ready to face the challenges that I might face (1)
If they only knew how my eyes sparks when I see you before, I hope our friend, which is my ex that you really knew, won't read this, I would be on red face and waving my white flag and say I know you caught me staring.
It was a crazy route of how we met and asking myself aren't you my boyfriend, I am just teasing.
Yeah I called 911 to rescue my from heart attack from making this heart bigger every time I don't talk and wishing to say, "why just now... I have been waiting".
It started from a kiss turned to soul feeding and turned to where we are from now.
I didn't imagine how it really started and been stated by fate but our lips turned to touch and lingers to each other.
God I thank alcohol for being drunk that time and made me float like a smoke freely lingers to my skin as how I touch yours.
I admit I was doubtful but you shun my hands as you put it into my eyes that should be blinded and be guided by your scent that pushes me everyday.
Crazy and cranky.
sweet and salty.
I always asked you from last year's and didn't saw it coming that you were there all along... six years and counting.
You tied my hands from the back and now promising not to backtrack for because you were shining above the rest and never imagined you were coming from my side and been there in front of me all this time.
Remember how we tease each other that we were mumbling on the side and said " ehem as if we are close", funny isn't it how it twisted.
til' that time came that my eyes wasn't crying but my soul's bleeding you stand by me and the words "okay lang yan, labas mo lang".
I wasn't aware it somehow started there... another story of a little lad trusting his head again as it leans to another man.
Movie it was and I was shaky of being there and came late but you stood there and waited. After couple of drinks after that night, I really wish to touch my hand to your face and say you are more than wonderful.
Then next is being in the same address as yours, funny isn't it as i lay my fingers to the pen and stroking my tax pay to your doorstep. Ha ha, and now I am really laughing.
Then the patience was there again and giving a dainty food on the table of a fast food chain that I can't really resist.
Then the next time was the question that I don't want to hear but wishing to be spoken by your lips.... "what are we?". I swear I was in my blushed cheeks.
Then the challenge of how we keep our clique wonder what was with us as we wander every town while holding hands to each other and sing til' the world ends.
Then I finally broke my rule as you patiently waiting to my affirmation.
I was like at awe and a bit teary as I say Yes to you.
I admit I can't really help it.
It was never boring to be with you. I always thought of losing my thoughts being shared by a tasteful conversation... it never did even if I stop talking it kept coming and as I stop you talk and bite my lips and wanting to tell "you are more than smart to me".
As I almost forget the day we officially noted our day and wanting to surprise you, you left me at awe as you pick up the chocolate cake and said "happy first month". You didn't know how you make me feel happy and contented.
I love you and will stop writing for now...
(1) You are a challenge that I will keep as long as you wish to stay and will never ever wish you to leave.
I love you might be not enough for as I close this chapter of me for now... I will open another day with you again and will kiss another day as it comes pouring.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
There comes a time that a little boy no more becomes a kid again.
It pains to say that I have been dumb founded by being so kind and not seeing the other side of it.
They say keep it low but sometimes I want to burst the feeling of sarcasm, anger and pain. All I did was shivering to the side. vented out but it seems to be as shallow as it gets.
Sometimes I wonder, is being good means bad to other people?
I sometimes regret what I did, but I think I did the right thing.
I love my job and it pays me well. I feel like crying but it is unnecessary to do so.
Then comes taps on your shoulder saying, Alvin is a lovable boy.
It made me smile that time. What made me more smile is "Let's eat after work, tell it to me". I smiled and realized, it pays to be good. It gives you more blessings.
I wish to the universe that all the pain that I have right now will be at ease.
All the sufferings will be lifted.
It will be at peace.
As you see the glimpse, the other side is a smiling nymph.
As she prays for you and you pray together it will be a bliss.
Thank you even if you can't or don't read this.
Patience is your virtue.
and for readers I'll keep you updated from now on :)
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
How do you know if that is a great start?
Do you believe in everything that you do has a meaning?
Does the things that Midas touched before is made out of really beautiful?
Is that made out of love?
I have this random tweet from one of my followers and he said that "you always cook when you're in love"
Which reminds me, I always cook when I am inspired. Isn't it nice?
Is it because of you?
You answered some of the questions that I used to find but does that lead me to the another boggle game again?
I am used walking towards the next page but will this differ?
If he has the courage to pull me back would that matter?
Have I made up my mind yet?
Did I already set the time to 10:10 already?
Am I ready to be glanced again?
am I part of the eBay refurbished commodity this time?
Will I admit that I am bruised?
will I be sold?
Will I able to accept the patches that will be on my crown?
Am I really bound to have this all the time?
Do I always end up with a frown?
Is it always a temporary high?
which makes me think, when will that stable fly?
One thing permanent to me now is to rest my questions,
for they always say "let the problem problems the problem".
You taught me a good lesson and like them it always stays here, you will stay here, it will be safe here and you will be safe here *pointing on my mind and touching my heart
Thursday, January 27, 2011
"Let us give love a try", I'll start it with that line.
Who have thought that I found myself being by your side.
You came at the right moment and at my awkward time.
I suddenly felt at home at a strangers arm and restlessness collide.
thinking I should say NO!
was that casually?
or you did that because I was a casualty?
I am not that strong to resist you.
I felt weak.
that time I was a meek.
then there, the sound, Tick!
Indeed, it was Kinetic.
Then we crossed the rough road.
I never imagined you can offer that ode.
Thy desire, you lode.
About those confusions, you put a node.
not in a hurry.
not in haste.
Just the way it is, placid.
We will know that someday.
For now I'm good here...
for I know we are better than strangers, less than partners...
close to lovers.