don't cry while walking

Last night after taking my review subject, me and my friend went to a choral concert of our very own Mapua Concert Singers. It was astonishing. It was great. After the surprises that the choral made, the alumni members and the current members gathered together again like the old times. Well they sang their version of 'kailangan kita'. My friend, a photographer, said "let's go to the front", but as we walk in the amidst of the theatre, i suddenly stoppedd and listen to the choral singing. There i was, stuck with the idea of drowning myself again for the idea that I should stop.

It has been a year and so, but I can still forget that idea...
No! you know it was a dream and I can't believe I said the
word WAS... yes let's say it should be WAS...
I found myself almost crying last night because of You!
I want to tell myself "You fool! wake up. You guys already cut the ties".
I caught myself listening to melancholic melodies and lingering every words they uttered.
If my fingers can reach you... It well tell you that I've been reminiscing the very few places that we stepped in. I made it as a landmark and photographed it unto my head.
I know... tell me I am a fool... it came to a point that the tides subside on your part and now it is my turn to mourn...
It feels like I am in a funeral and tearing over a wonderful Saturday that we will go to mall... You'll drive me up.. open up my door when I am going down... I'll choose clothes for you... you know I love styling you up... we will cook together... eating dinner at my place that will soon be OURS... but I dont know... maybe i should stop leading that next chapters...
Maybe I'll write again with my tear drops as my ink...

By the way I saw you the other night... I dont want to say hi for it may lead me broke... broke from your attention.. good thing you did that too... or maybe your good... and acquired the skill of leaving me along the suburbs with nothing on my hands but the pieces of us and the promises that we both ruined...

I admit it is my fault...that is why I am ending us now...
Today and this evening, I will find myself...
Don't let me see you... for i will hold your hands until the next chapters come true...
Well if you dont show up, wish me well for I will find a big black hole and leave Uno...

P.S.
I miss US!
I love you... it stayed here evert since...